There are so many things about motherhood that people can't/won't/don't tell you about motherhood. Take breastfeeding for example. When I had the little Guy I was very determined to breastfeed him, or at least to give it a darn good try. Fortunately thanks to excellent mid wives and a lactaction consultant we worked it out after a few days. He was a lovely baby who slept through the night from about 12 weeks and fed every 3 hours like clockwork during the day. I had mastitis twice with him, at about 6 months and mostly due to the fact that I was stressed and then didn't finish my first lot of antibiotics completely.
Amelie was a different story in the early days, she attached like a dream from the moment she came out of the womb and I was a lot more savvy second time round. Though luck wasn't on my side as I got mastitis 3 times (yes THREE times) in her first 10 weeks of life. I was so sick and miserable and she was feeding every 2 hours like a woman posessed. Fortunately she has slowed down in her feeding, and now massively exceeds the 100th percentile for her weight. She is a bit slow on the uptake of the solids whereas Guy ate like a champ from 4 months on. Amelie has slept through the night about 5 times and still at 6 months of age gets me up at least once a night for a feed.
I'm considering at the moment switching for Amelie's bedtime feed from breast to bottle with formula. In the hope that a slightly fuller tummy will make her sleep a little longer. Also with the hope that husband Guy and I could then perhaps go out for a couple of hours of an evening, even if she then gets up in the night. Isn't that the kicker though, you strive so hard to get breastfeeding established, put up with cracked and bleeding nipples, mastitis, being woken up multiple times per night, and then when you want to scale it back or give it up, it's so hard! I have such mixed feelings about scaling back breastfeeding, I'm terrified about getting mastitis again and it's such an emotional thing.
Anyway I have taken some baby steps. I've bought a new bottle and some formula and she seems to like the concept of a bottle when I tested her out with a little bit of water in it. Am I alone in this mental struggle and love/hate relationship with breastfeeding? Or is this common?